Hi man! (realised that i like to say that a lot nowadays...hehe...)

Sorry for the lack of updates... I feel so honoured that people actually want me to update, shows that someone actually reads. haha... Thanks Shuwen dear!

Anyway, I'm in hall now (i got into Kent Ridge Hall, my first choice. Yay!) and it's almost 3am in the morning. Reason why I'm still online at this time is because I just bought my laptop today at matric fair! It's a Toshiba laptop, and the best thing about it is that it's ONLY 1.09kg light! Damn light la, and super chio too! Love it!~ I'm so excited about using it! Haha...

I checked into hall on Sunday afternoon, and since then we've been having FWOC (freshman welcome orientation camp) [pronounce FWOC, and it'll sound like a certain 4-letter F word. haha...)

My room was damn dirty when I first moved in. I cleaned up a little, and it's much better now... Though I haven't actually gotten down to cleaning the floor, which is actually the grossest part. There's so much dust and long hair all over! I think my room must be the grossest room in the hall now! Eeew...

Anyway, orientation has been fine. People are ok, though there are certain really showy and irritating people. Me, being a nice girl, I act as if I like everyone. I don't want to spoil my reputation of being a nice girl by not being nice to some irritating person. All in all, the people are ok, and I'm beginning to realise that guys make better friends than girls sometimes, cos they're more fun. Haha... But I'm still quite shy around guys leh, don't really know why, and can't really help it.

The seniors are superbly nice and friendy here, that's why I love Kent Ridge so, so much!

Anyway, I've really got to go sleep now, and part with my beloved lappie for the night! Maybe I'll hug it to sleep. Haha...

Only left with less than 4 hours (and counting) to sleep...

And cheers to my new laptop, and more posts coming your way! Whoo!

Everything's fine and dandy

I was confused about loads of stuff, mainly because of the scholarship. But I have to be careful about what I blog. Don't want people seeing the wrong side of me.

Anyway, today was a great day. I was real afraid of it at first, but everything turned out to be fine. And better still, it sorted out the big knot in my mind. Now everything's great! Shall blog about it another if if I have the time. These few days, I so deprived of sleep, sometimes I feel like my soul's gonna leave my body...

Confused...

I just came back from OBS. It was really, really fun. I wanna blog more about it, but I'm dead beat. I learnt quite a bit more, but also came back with a much more confused mind. OBS made me think a lot, especially when we sat down and shared our reflections.

Stuff that I thought I loved, now I'm not too sure. I feel as if I've lost my direction.

And also, I know I'm a warm and friendly person. But when I come together with all these ultra smart and impressive fellow scholars, I have a natural tendency to try to fade into the background. People now know me as sweet and shy. That is so not me. But I don't know how to show them who I am. Whenever I try, my inconfidence pulls me back again...

And there's something else. I think I'm giving up far too much for this whole course. I want to be councillor for arts camp real bad, but pre-camp is during PDC. I've no choice but to skip it. I feel so constrained suddenly, I'm feeling really depressed.

It's so intensive, I feel like it's squeezing the life out of me. I feel like I've become a lifeless zombie who has to put on a fake smilely face to meet everyone tomorrow...

I am not happy. Very not happy.

I am a very tired adult

My bro didn't have to go to school today cos 1st of July, which is Youth's Day, falls on Sunday. When he told me this yesterday, it suddenly dawned on me that I'm no longer considered a youth! I had to go for PDC today, and it's not a holiday for me!! Sob sob...

Anyway, before the course started today, I was feeling really quite scared. All of us are PSC scholars leh. I'm afraid that everyone will be so good, and that I'll find out I'm actually not good enough... Haiz, I must stop having so little confidence in myself!

Turns out that there are 46 scholars in our batch. Got 2 from VJ, 1 from NJ and ACJC, and the rest are from HCI and RJ. There are so, so many of them, a lot of them already know each other la! I felt quite left out at first, but the very nice girl (Amanda) who sat beside me introduced me to her friends and talked to me. She's really very nice!

The whole day, we went through personality tests, learning about leadership stuff, coping with stress and change, etc. The talk was ok, though sitting on the floor throughout was really very tiring for the legs.

Good thing there were 2 tea breaks and lunch in between. The food was good! I like... Haha... :)

We started the day at 8.30am and ended at about 6pm. It's been a long day!

On the MRT trip back, I got closer to some of the girls, and I didn't feel so lonely anymore.

All in all, everyone is really quite nice. Not as intimidating as I imagined them to be. They were all normal people like you and me, just that of course, the way they speak and do stuff were a little more leader-like...

Tomorrow's my first day of OBS, I'm gonna be there until Thursday. It's my first time there, and I'm excited! Though I'm really, really tired now from sleeping late last night. I better go sleep soon, cos the next time I can get a proper night's sleep will probably be Thursday night!

The thing is, I haven't packed my bag! Haiz...

A dramatic week

MORE SHOPPING...

Thur (21st June) was the first day of MANGO sale! Whoo! Weiwei, Wei Qi and Jiale took leave to go shop. *Envious*

Me and You Qi decided to go after work, to Vivo. It was absolute madness over there. So many ladies, flipping through rows and rows of shelves, piles of clothes, and some in a corner, trying on clothes over their own. There was even hip hop music in the background, pumping up the andrenaline and making all of us chiong even more.

Even though it was the first day of the sale, most of the more common sizes were already gone! The queue for the changing room was crazy. I took quite a few pieces to try, but ended up buying only 1 denim skirt cos didn't want to spend too much time there. There were seriously too many people that there wasn't enough air or something, and I kinda got a headache.

My first time buying something from Mango. Happy...

Look at the skirt!

The front:

And the back:

I absolutely love the logo. The rest of the skirt is actually quite plain, but the colour's nice! Yay, love it! Got it at $33 (U.P. $49). :)

SOME MORE SHOPPING...

On Sunday (24 July), I went to Vivo (again! My third time in a week!) with Sheryl and Jasmine. We haven't met up for super long already, so it was really fun to see each other. We had dinner at Thai Express and ice cream at Ben and Jerry's. Yum!

But I dripped some chocolate ice cream on my nice white shirt! Sad... If the stain doesn't go off, I won't be able to wear the shirt anymore! It's really quite obvious... :( You can see it in this pic...

And remember the white shirt I mentioned from River Island? Well, I've been thinking about it ever since then, so I decided to get it... Haha... $35. But I don't have a picture of it, can't post it here... I'm really glad with it!!! Whoo!! :)

THE LAST DAY OF WORK...

22nd July, friday, is my last day of work at Ernst & Young! I'm seriously sad to go! It's not so much of missing the job, but missing the friends, the environment, losing the familiarity of everything that I've been attached to for 6 months!

Jiale and Wei Qi gave me some very pretty cookies. I got Famous Amos and a note from Eileen, nice cards from Shujing and Wei Wei, and bookmarks from Mei Ling. Yay... It feels nice to be treasured. It was also Bernice and Sylvia's last day, but they left earlier in the afternoon.

The company also had high tea as farewell for us. The food was wonderful!!!

We took loads of photos too, esp in the toilet where the lighting was great!

And I also got a very, very nice present from Pei Shan and Kwei Kheng!!! The wrapper's so beautiful! I love how the package fits so nicely in the plastic bag.

When I first saw it, I thought it was a pair of jeans. And seriously in my mind, I thought "shit!". Cos it's difficult to find the correct size, and I was afraid it wouldn't be able to fit!

But it's actually a very nice denim jacket, and it fits perfectly too! I love the flower patterns on the side.It's definitely something that I'll wear proudly to uni! :D

Took a photo with Pei Shan too... Her stomach's really big le, she's due in July or August. Still remember the time when we first started work, and all of us interns were suspecting if she was pregnant. I literally saw her stomach growing from almost nothing to how big it is now!

When it was time to leave, I was seriously very sad! And I don't know why, but I started crying! I feel super stupid la!!! Cos Sylvia and Bernice left without crying, and there I was, crying like a baby. Haiz... I'm an emotional person, can't help it!

6 months seemed to have passed so quickly. The bunch of us have been through so, so much! The problems we've had at work, doing OT late into the night, having those yummy evening snacks, the release of A level results, our outings, and so much more. It's like we've become so close after seeing each other for a full 9 hours everyday, mon to fri, for the last 6 months! It's really been a long time, but it seems to have passed in the blink of an eye.

I still remember that when I first joined, I didn't feel so attached to all these people. I never thought that we'd become such great friends. Now, they're all that I miss from the job. I'm the only one going to NUS (other than Shuyun), and almost all of them are going to NTU!!! Sadness... But well, I'm sure we'll keep in touch...

ARTS CAMP...

I wanna blog about this, but I'm seriously busy. Shall continue this post another day.