moving again!

this time, the new add is (removed). will be interesting. go read!

Excitement...

Tomorrow night is formal dinner! I'm super excited!

I seriously hope I don't think too much into it. It's just for fun...

We had training, or "bonding sessions" as they call it, for IBG just now. Track and volleyball. Track was ok, I just went down for fun, wasn't planning to actually run for the block. Everyone had to take time trials, and surprisingly, I am one of the 4 runners for 100m representing C block. I'm 4th by the way...

Volleyball was the ultimate fun-est! I love it, even though this is the first time I'm playing it. But now I've got great big bruises on my arms! Quite ugly, how to go for formal dinner like that? But then again, I don't know why, but I'm kinda proud of my bruises. Haha... Like I played very hard like that. Ha!

I'm planing to dress up nicely for tomorrow, and just have fun!

PS. Sorry for the lack of updates. The past few days have been superbly fun, but awfully busy as well. I will try to update when I have the time! :)

Things are looking up! ... maybe

I was appointed cheer i/c for today's activities. I guess it was mainly because many others were going for matriculation today, and not really because they thought I was good. My performance for this camp is definitely not that good, not as good as when I was in Camp Blue Blood, definitely.

I didn't think I was a great i/c. Maybe an ok one, if you overlook the small mistakes here and there.

Anyway, because I was i/c, I sorta felt more related to the group, I think. I don't know la... But today feels much better than yesterday. And the thing is, I think the seniors from other group saw me leading cheers too. I just hope I didn't come across as being to showy, just like the kind of people I so dislike.

And today, we also had supper with our block seniors. We had a cake for Aug babies, and I was asked to go up cos I mentioned ever so softly that my birthday's in Aug too... I was quite happy at first, happy that for once, such things happen to me, that the spotlight shines in my direction. But, according to C block culture, as I soon found out, the birthday people have to do some almost-kissing thing, where a piece of very, very itsy bitsy teeeny weeny piece of chocolate will be passed from a girl's mouth to a guy's. I thought that I shall just try to be sporting, and went up. On hindsight, I really hope I didn't appear like I was happy and desperate for that! And of course, hoping that I didn't come across as being too showy...

Also made up my mind on my target for the dating game. Haha... Recommended courtesy of Rachel. I haven't had the chance to talk to him yet, but I heard he's a real nice guy.

At 1am, after rag rush, I went to Ivy's room where we created little notes for our potential dates. Super funny la, esp when we had to go to outside their room to leave the notes.

Since KR is such that it's one floor girls, one floor guys, it would seem real weird if we were caught on a guy's floor. No excuse to save us! We wanted to remain anonymous first cos we're shy. Haha... Got into a few dangerous situations when we were almost found out. We were being so sneaky, it was funny! Haha... I felt like a small girl having a silly crush on a senior, and trying to pass him a love letter. Ha... Just that of course, this time, the cirumstances are different la.

Spending so much time with Ivy today on the card made us closer friends I think. Looks like I just got a new good friend! :)

Feeling introverted

Somtimes, it's tiring having to meet new people all the time, and having to act enthu at it too.

Pool games today were great! I did well and I think others saw that too. Somehow, I bother a lot about what other people think of me. I know it doesn't really sound right here, but if u were in my position, experiencing all that I am, and knowing the full story, that would probably be an acceptable kind of thinking.

But after pool games, I felt kinda left out though. Somehow, I feel that I can't connect with my group at all! It's not that I'm being dao or anything, they just seem to click together without me!

I enjoy being in the company of the seniors so much more, especially Ron, since I already know him from Camp Blue Blood. Somehow, I feel like he's so much friendlier to me now. hahaha... J Lo's great company too!

So far, the times I really enjoyed myself was at rag rush yesterday, with Ron sitting beside, and the conversation with J Lo this morning, and pool games.

That's why today, during rag rush, i was being anti-social and introverted, and I let myself be. I know Wilson, a senior sitting next to me, was kinda trying to make conversation, but I really couldn't be bothered since there were 2 other girls also talking. I just kept really quiet. And I actually felt bad for that, but I can't help it.

It's not a very nice feeling having to meet so many new people. From PDC, from arts camp, from USP, and now from KR. And it sucks big time, especially if you don't feel welcomed. I miss Camp Blue Blood so much more, because I could really click with the people there!

I miss the Akihito seniors so much, esp KT, XY, Ron and J Lo. Although Ron and J Lo are actually in the same group as me now, I actually feel quite jealous that I have to "share" them with the other freshies. I know what I'm saying probably sounds super stupid, but forgive me, I'm just ranting, and I can't make head and tail of everything I'm feeling right now.

The best thing about today was that a certain disgustingly showy person wasn't with out group for most part of the day. She's such a B-I-T-C-H! And I don't usually call people that, cos it's rude, but I used it tonnes of times on her whenever I see her. Silently of course... Everything she does turns me off. Disgusting stupid biatch!

I know I sound so vulgar now. But whatever, I seldom, almost never do this ok!

Hope tomorrow will be much better! I wanna fit in, I wanna be with people that I can mix with! I wanna be with the people I like, instead of being with people who I dislike, and have to pretend that I like, so as not to be alone. This feeling sucks big time, and I'm sick of it.

Having an overdose of orientation, I actually miss my non-KR life for a bit. I went onto MSN just now, and chatted with Van Loo, Mak and Huan Ting. People I truly like, and it was real nice! I feel like I'm just gonna cry right now. I miss being in a familiar environment. I don't want to be in this foreign place 24/7 until friday! Some people are real nice, and I truly love them, but if I have to spend time with others other than them, it's not a good feeling... seriously!

I wonder what am I to do about the dating game. Some things can be such a headache sometimes!